1 year ago today I woke up in a hospital, with no idea how I had gotten there, or most of the events prior. The doctors told me they had no idea how I was alive with an alcohol level of .427 and the combination of sedatives I had taken with it. I couldn’t believe it myself as I had tried to end my life. I don’t know if I was angry or if I was relieved I hadn’t succeeded. But that night I prayed hard to a God that I had abandoned, I thanked him for keeping me alive even though I didn’t understand why!
Today I do, so I could be a mother, help others and be the best daughter, friend, and sister to whoever God put in front of me. I still don’t fully know my purpose as most of us don’t, but I definitely see things through totally different eyes. It’s not like everything became perfect when I became sober, but man did things start happening once I really did the work and gave myself to God. I got my baby girl back, broken relationships began to heal, I have a strong friendship and trust once again with my dad, I became apart of one of the most amazing churches ever (Grace!). I was baptized, and I’ve had the best friends, family and leadership one could ever ask for come into my life, to forever stay!!!
I’m constantly trying to find ways to give back and help others so I can give away this gift I was so graciously given when I had tried so diligently to take it away. A life that is imperfectly perfect! A life I am beyond blessed to have and more and more grateful for everyday!!! I have today and today only and it’s been amazing so far!! I can’t wait to see what God has in store for me, and I am going to keep remaining eligible for the good stuff by doing the next right thing, and living life one day at a time, one moment at a time, and never again taking this life for granted! 🙌 #GodFirst #miracleshappen