When I was 23 years old I got the worse news of my life. I was told I wouldn’t live to see 30. I had developed a condition that caused my body to throw blood clots, Factor V Leiden blood mutation. What confused doctors is the frequency of the clots. Even with this condition, I should be able to live a normal life but I was clotting on every medicine they put me on.
I fell into a slump, hard and deep. I spent a lot of time in bars, drinking and smoking and going home with women. I found myself constantly asking God why he would allow this. I have been a good person, why did I deserve this? When I had kids, the drinking and partying stopped, but the doubt and fear remained.
It wasn’t until I found myself in ROOTED, a class on going deeper with God provided at Grace Church, I found the answer I needed. One of the chapters talks about how to talk to God. Part of any conversation is listening, so why not listen to Him, too? Our group met to practice this after fasting and I was sitting outside; the sun had set and I prayed. I begged for some type of answer. I began to scribble on a piece of paper and tried to drown out the barking dogs and the planes flying overhead, but couldn’t. More frustration. After going back inside, I looked at my scribbles and in the middle of the page was a sentence. “I will never leave you alone.” My 30th birthday has come and gone, I am now 36. Thanks to Grace Church, my wife and my renewed faith I now have something I haven’t had in 13 years – peace. My name is Scott Whitney and I am Unqualified.